Everyday's crap.

2010-11-23T11:25:00.006+08:00

Finally dance practices ended.

And i am covered with bruises scratches cuts and blisters thanks to the intensive training.

But I am so free now! Can go out everyday!! :D
Went out to celebrate birthday with friends on 14th nov!

Thanks to everyone who helped me celebrate and to those who wished me :D

AND THIS WEEKEND I AM GOING OVERSEAS. DONT SMS/CALL. FROM 27NOV TO 1DEC. THANKS. :D

2010-11-23T10:57:00.005+08:00

On 11 nov my family went to celebrate my birthday!

We went to Pasta Stylo at City Square Mall! The deco and ambience there is GREAT!

The food there is quite special, like one and only in sg.

Should try! Its nice~

The BIRTHDAY CAKE!! And its on the house! :D

DESSERT!

Didnt take much pics cause the lighting there very dark.

Its a very good place to go to for parties.

The place looks damn cool.

I enjoyed the day :DD

2010-11-22T13:03:00.006+08:00

Well, Im BACK. And super free now. :D

Alot happened in the past 3weeks jnst that i have no time to blog about it.

On 4th nov, my family went to Cafe Biz, Traders Hotel to celebrate my Daddy's 50th birthday.

The food there was AWESOME! Especially their Alaska crab and their FONDUE!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DADDY! :D

Most people dont know, but me and my father have the same birth date! Special right!

2010-11-15T22:30:00.002+08:00

I have been quite busy lately. No time blog! :o
The next time i post, i will post around 3-4 post to make up for these few weeks of not updating!
Now i am damn tired. Need sleep. Goodnight! :D
My last 1 and half hour to the end of my birthday :)
Weird, I didnt feel that today was a special day.
If there were no birthday wishes in the morning, i think i would have forgotten today was my birthday. :)
HEHE so funny. :D

2010-10-22T23:36:00.003+08:00

We are ALWAYS so far apart from our dream playland.

It is always blocked by something.

Problems that we face create this wall and strengthens it.
The only way to break it is to Work hard and Play hard.

Enjoy your life to your best because, life is short.

Been pretty occupied recently.

Exams ended but intensive training for dance started.

Now i have backaches and muscle cramps.

But i dont mind because i like dancing.

It makes me happy!

And i tend to become retarded during dance practice.

Veron and me keep laughing! So retarded!

HEHE :D

Monday, thurdays & friday had dance,

Tuesday went to eat lunch with 2 Brens and shirley, I keep disturb the 2 brens :D

Wednesday went out with Veron and Yern to celebrate Yern's BIRTHDAY!

Friday just went out with Veron, so tired!

Now getting more busy.. And more aches everywhere :(

2010-10-15T00:35:00.002+08:00

:o I didnt realise it was 12 already!
Goodnight people! :D

2010-10-15T00:18:00.003+08:00

HEY! Doesnt this resembles bren?

Out with Yern today!
She wanted to study -.- so i pei her!

But ended up talking.. :D

And also ate lunch with bren.

His fries.. are too salty.

I am starting to get the hang of this after exams feel
Its GREAT!

Everyday use com, eveyday play.

No more books to touch. Relax sial.

But.. O's next year!

Just gonna work hard and do my best.

Gotta go! BYE! :D

STOP THOSE LIES.

2010-10-13T15:12:00.003+08:00

END OF EXAMS FINALLY!
I am back at updating! :D
Party now, worry later~

If you want to carry on lying, go ahead. FYI, I do know all about it.
I dont really care about what you wanna do, but if you wanna lie to me, just try to be smarter will ya?
Its really dumb when you cant even lie right.
And when you should really think thru what you said about others. Because, you are doing exactly what other bitches are doing.
Dont be too curious to ask me who i am talking about. Because then, you will be digging your own graves with your own bare hands. :D

2010-08-30T23:17:00.002+08:00

My blog is totally dead for the time being?
School sucks totally. No mood or time to even post nowadays.
I HATE SCHOOL.
How i wish i can skip boring school day without getting caught. :(
Watched fried rice paradise on recently with m&d and IT WAS GREAT!!
Way pass my expectations man!
Yeah man! It was worth it.
My test results are getting better! (IN YOUR FACE BRENNAN)
:D i keep getting higher marks nowadays.
I think the failing of MYE was a great wake up call for me!
Now i am improving! I will get better! :D

My life in school is in ruins, in a perfect mess of a lifetime.
I dont intend to do anything. just go with the flow.
too lazy to be bothered anyway. if anything were too happen again i will try my best to not make another lousy decision.
I dont know why i keep making decisions that i always regret.
When will the day come that i will do something that i will never regret ever in my life?

2010-08-06T22:27:00.005+08:00

I wish there is a wishing butterfly.

Kinda funny today. But also extremely boring
Regreting to come school! The celebrations were like ...
Kinda made a new friend. And also saw someone/a cat got tricked! I cant believe he is so gulible!
:D
I decided to lie instead of trying to explain and tell the truth.
Tried explaining and it made me so dulan twice!
So whats the use? Just lie. Since people are so gulible. :D
And that bastard Fareez knocked a bottle of green tea on to me which made my uniform wet and dirty! He was lucky i didnt pack my bag then i have extra uniform.
This day is not ending happily though.
I am still quite annoyed and it just got worst after some extra person destroyed my mood.

2010-07-28T18:35:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating. Have been really lazy recently.
And now i am stressed up by amaths. The topics are harder and harder.
I dont understand anything and my tuition teacher lagging behind.
This seriously sucks. :((
And this is the first time i failed so many tests in a row.
I am trying to work hard but i dont think thats possible with my mood now.
Anyways school just simply sucks, along with amaths.
And i am no longer enjoying anything in school. Not even dance.
Except for Brennan entertaining me in class. :D
And THERE IS NO MORE OUTINGS!!
I HATE THIS! :(

~Smile when you feeling down~

2010-07-10T13:06:00.002+08:00

Dk why my blogskin pictures not working. I will just fix it with my own pictures when i have the time. :D
Too lazy nowadays.
Plus i can only use com during weekends. I rather use my time to do other stuff.
So i guess i wont post much. HAHA. :D

Some ppl are plain childish and dumb. They themselves say to not go round spreading shit and they do it. -.-
Some assholes dont get facts right before they start destorying their own friendship. Its totally not worth it. Only dumb ppl do that.
Someone also grown alot. Dared to be so rude to me. Well, i dont hate you. I just HATE YOUR BOYFRIEND.

2010-07-03T20:59:00.003+08:00

School started for a week le.
And it sucked.
Its been really boring.
And i was really quiet through the whole week.
Teachers gave a hell lot of homeworks and remedials!
We have to stay back for remedials every weekday until the EOY exams start!
OMG!! Damn!
:((((

2010-06-25T23:57:00.004+08:00

Nice sunset eh? :D

Went out with Annabelle and Yokpin for awhile today.

Went to peirce 2nd earhole!

I was afraid it was going to hurt but it was only like a burning sensation.

But after peirce then it start to pain a bit.

And and i found out that have to leave the earring on for at least 3weeks to be safe!!

I am supposed to take it out during dance practice!

HOW?? :(

But 2nd peircing is nice leh.

HAHAHA. I just have to kan zhe ban le.

2010-06-24T21:53:00.014+08:00

Today me and MingTat got the honor to be the first deyians to step into JoonTong's house and see his parents up close!!

I am honored! HAHAHA

Too bad JT has to suffer the interrogations now.

His house was really small!

Too bad i didnt get to take pictures, you readers would have the chance to look at how small his house is if i did. ;D

And on the 17th June, we (me, Annabelle, MingTat, JoonTong, Brennan, Jade) went to celebrate YOKPIN's birthday! And we made her wear a skirt!! :D
Here are some of the pictures!! :D

A post specially for band.

2010-04-08T21:12:00.004+08:00

Jy band! You all can do it!

Today's performance was GREAT!!!

Keep it up man!

I will be there to support you guys!

So you all better make it a worth it trip!

HAHAHAHAHA.

I believe you guys can win!

Yokpin: JY!! I know you all can de. Stop worrying! Win and we will have a celebration after that. Dont let all your efforts be wasted!! JY JY JY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Jade: JY too!! CG rocks!! HAHA. Bring your camp spirit in!! I believe you all can do it so you all better win! :)

Yokpin and Jade: Be honored. This post was meant for you all. :)

2010-04-06T22:18:00.003+08:00

Today is a total Fucked up day.

Saw 5 fuck faces.

Number 1 fuck face: I did not have a fight with you. Even if you hate me, you dont have to show dulan face when you hear my name right? Since you already announced that its almost over between you two, why bother messing with me? You seriously wont want to mess with me. You will regret it.

Number 2 & 3: I dont really know you two so dont go around insulting ppl.

Number 4: I dont know you and you dont know me. But i hate it when you keep doing that to my people.

Number 5: Its basic respect to say bye when others say that to you. what's with the fucked up face and the dao face? I admit i might be abit overboard when i caused something to happpen. But at least dont give that face la.

Today started well but became bad in while and good again and bad in the end.

All i can say now is Suan liao.

I dont give a fucking damn anymore.
I already did my part. Maybe i said something wrong after that but i didnt mean it.
I cant do anything else le. Its all up to what you think now.
I wont care le. Suan liao, suan liao.

I know tmr i will be giving a freaking sian face the whole day.
I wont go there this week. Unless i need.
Fucking fucked up day.

2010-04-05T22:18:00.003+08:00

Using com to 'do' e-learning. The lame shit e-learning every year again.
Sianzz.. I dont understand a shit about partial fractions from the ppt.
I am not intending to do Amaths. Go school copy as usual. :))

And today was boring.
I like whole day no mood one.
I only talk abit only lor. LOL.
Anyways, I think its gonna stay that way till i change my seat..
Epic emo-ster..

And band members Jiayous!! I am going there to support so you peeps better do well!!
HAHAHHAHAHHAH.

And tmr no school. Cause of e-learning.
Most likely going out with Belle and ppl to study.

Well, i think thats all. Short post today. :)

2010-04-03T00:38:00.002+08:00

I seriously need to post about today..
A freaking fun but tiring day. Its filled with walking.
And the freaking thing is.. I was wearing 3-inch high-heels today!!!
Dont have the pics with me.. See Annabelle's blog.

Anyways.. Today, supposed to meet up with Yokpin & JT.
But.. Plan failed and last minute created new plan.
After Yokpin went off for her tuition, me and Tongs went to Jade's house.
I called her first. And when she heard that we are coming, she shouted in the phone!!!
I wont go into details on that..
Then Brennan & Belle appeared.
Then we chatted and pranked some people.
Then JunWei came. Then soon, we left Jade's house and went to hub.
We went to the cinema to check if Clash of the Titians still got seats anot.
But.. dont have!!! So we decided to eat first.
Went to KFC. Ate and bullied JT abit. HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA!!
Then we got to walk across TangTang's house!! LOL.
Then we walked to a sky garden at a block in Toa Payoh.
View very nice, wind also not bad. But quite boring there.
Then Bren and Tong danced and Belle took video for them.
Then i also danced a very little bit.. Sian diao.
Then went to Toa Payoh central. Searched for toilet then played arcade for awhile.
I was racing with the guys and I was leading!!!!!!
Then suddenly at the last lap I suddenly crash into a wall!!!
WTH!!!!! Not fair!! Then i become last. Walao.
Then after that played drums. Not bad. LOL.
Then watched Belle and Tong play the red-blue-green that game. Idk what's that called.
Went to the tpy hub and took bus to cousin's house for party.
This is the epic 3km walk in heels.
My cousin live in bungalow. And bungalow's road are like maze. Then my mother give the info so lousy.
So I went many many big rounds and walked through many alleys and roads. And the weather was freaking hot and i was damn scared of getting lost. But i didnt want to call my parents. I wanted to try to find my own way. But after 45mins of endless walking, and a bit of runing, I finally found the house. LOL.
Partied and now home.
I was extremely tired but just came back and had a shower. So now i am wide awake. Damn, there goes my beauty sleep.. 0

Btw.. Sorry to those who we pranked.. Its just a joke. Dont take it so seriously la. Its the belated april fool's joke. Just chill la.

And and, I am un-privating my blog soon. I realised that if i already decided to break all ties and become what i am now, might as well just be myself? I dont have to care about what others say.

I think its bye now? :)

2010-03-31T20:48:00.005+08:00

Its been one year since the last April fool's day, I still remember what happened. It was a really fun day.. Haiss.

Many friendships lost in one year. I know i do regret one significant one. Its not her. That one i am happy to lose. But too many things happened.

This year is the year we will find out who is our true friends, who is our true enemies. Best friends can turn into enemies and sworn enemies can become friends. As time past, people change. For the better or worst, you decide. This year, I saw alot of friendships broken in the level. At least 4. But i know i made the right choice although i might be seen by some ppl as the bad person for breaking the friendship. After i left her aone, I made more friends, many more ppl wanted to make friends with me.. So i came to a conclusion. She was the cause of my un-popularity. LOL. Im a bitch..

Anyways.. I hope the class will be more united by the end of the year. Want to gl cher the gl together. Some ppl in my class got a really bad case of attitude probs. Got attitude then dont there gl teacher. No balls. Fail class.
I hate my class!!! :(

Bye now. Its late. tmr got school.

2010-03-27T16:26:00.002+08:00

Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away;

and all the things I want to say can find no voice.

Then, in silence,

I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart.

I lazy to post..

school started and it sucks.

Yesterday was fun..

But i shall not elaborate. I am too lazy. :)

During dance class, i learnt a new dance. Its seriously hard. But fun!!

Have abit of empty empty feeling again..

Should not have read that.

Hahas. Anyway, today is BORING!!!!!

Weekends suck balls.

Plus have to do housework..

DAMN!!

I have to research for dance steps!!

Bye i guess.. :(

2010-03-17T20:55:00.002+08:00

This whole holiday i keep going out. LOL. I want go out tmr too.. But not sure if can. I better faster ask.
Anyways.. yesterday i had a very good chat time with Belle and Ryan and Fareez. Stepping each other shoes was part of the fun. Haha. Great time.
Today was epic-ly fun!! At first we had M&D. Then today's practice was not bad. I didnt have the epic headache after doing backbends. But still abit.
Then after dance, had lunch with Qian Yi and Brenda. I ate Brownie and bought drink from Subway then went to the chinese resturant, sweet (somehing)? LOL. the worker there was so gl la. I drink coke sial. They also dont sell coke. Tell me to dont drink.. Fail la. I still continue eating and drinking Subway stuff. But I also ate some desserts there. The beancurd not bad. But the mango thing i thought its pudding then end up buy wrong.
Then later go practise the 30th anniversary bull with Brenda until the security guard chase us away..
Then Brenda went home.
And i meet up with Brennan and Joon Tong. Then went to Brenda's house. HAHA. Then continued the dance with Brenda and chatted with the guys. Brennan really can dance well. But Joontong needs to drama a bit more while dancing. Like make the movements more precise? LOL. My dance also quite fail. Heh.
Then shirley came.. And taught her the dance steps too. So now almost settle le. Need a few more eights then i think can le. JYJY!!
After that i went to have dinner at Subway with Brennan and Joontong. Chatted about lots of stuff. About primary school and the past few years. Haha. Keep laughing. LOL. I realised that i got into more trouble in primary school then in secondary school. I've grown mature.. I wanted to stay out late today.. Maybe go out till 10pm. But Joontong scared i cant go out tmr.. Then he alone. HAHA. No offence. :)
Looking forward to tommorrow. I hope i can make it!!! Wish me good luck.
GTG le. Byes.. :)

2010-03-15T21:35:00.002+08:00

Okay! I shall post about the EPIC outing I had with ANNABELLE and YOKPIN today!!

Its was so AMAZING & FUN!! LOL.

Hmm.. How do i start?? So..

I woke up to the vibration of my phone then i realised YOKPIN was calling me. And the time was 9.30am plus, half an hour to the time we are supposed to meet! .. I was late, AGAIN!!

Haha. So i went to brush my teeth and wash my face.. And before i started changing, Yokpin called and told me she was at my door. I saw like WTF!! wait there.. let me change first. It was raining so yokpin kept hurrying me. LOL. and to scare her, I told her that over where she was standing, there were roaches yesterday. Then she kinda shierked? Yeah. She is scared!!! HAHAHAHHAHA. I am being bad. LOL. Then i quickly finshed changing and let her in lor. Then leave house le, I wore HEELS! purposely. Haha.. You peeps should know what i mean. :)

Then when to meet ANNABELLE. And eat pastamania. Eat finish le then we go play pool!!! EPIC-LY FUN!!! As a beginner, I think i not bad le. LOL. First time play sial. But Yokpin damn zai. She also first time. But win alot of times wor. Better than Bell. :X

Heh. At first is i always tio free ball. Then aim also anyhow aim. LOL. Got once the ball bounce of the table!! Then we were laughing like mad. Then after that i slowly became better. At least now i can shoot some balls in and aim properly. LOL. Annabelle very fated to be with the black ball. LOL. She lost to me two times cause of it!! LOL. And then after i went to rest and she match with yokpin, then she got my disease! always give free ball. LOL. Yokpin play with us very easy win de. Then while playing, i accidentally cut my finger. Those very deep kind. But too me its nothing. LOL. Now it became a hole in my finger. Haha. And yet again, its on the middle finger! I didnt care about it then it kinda stained parts of my hand and it was freaking gross. Heh. Change topic.. Then when to Bell's house. Took many pictures there and desiao-ed Ryan. LOL. Then talked alot and stuff.

I had a really fun day until my parents destoryed it..

They seriously sucks. But i owned them in the end. LOL. Epic story.

Its like a very lame misunderstanding between my parents and they expect me to say sorry? NO WAY! Not even if my parents beg me like a dog and give me a million dollars or even if they treaten to kill themselves and the whole world. Thats sooooo against my principles.

Haha. I am so damn happy i owned them big time!!

But before i go,

JT: A big SORRY for killing your bill this month. Haha.

Yeah so bye now.. :)

2010-03-15T16:38:00.002+08:00

Currently posting from Annabelle's house!!! Later post about the details(if free)

2010-03-13T18:08:00.003+08:00

I took very long to post this post.. Keep writing and keep deleting.. Seriously no mood today.. After seeing reading some stuff.. I think everyone is leaving.. Haiss.. Lucky this week is holiday le. If not i go school sure emo de. Haiss.. Feeling damn down la.

I really didnt mean what you think i meant. Seriously not another one please. Enough sian le.. You might feel better but its making me feel worse.. Haiss..

One event always leds to another. Then there will be a string of events.. But will the cycle ever end?

Does anyone know of a dance studio i can access to for free? I want to practice..

Smile.. smile.. smile. I cant.. Smile.. Please.. Haiss.. I want to give up on trying to make myself smile.. Someone please make me smile..

2010-03-12T23:08:00.004+08:00

I shall not post about the camp. Sian. For more info go to jt(more about 305), Jade(more jeremy), brennan(more sick stuff).

I feel damn emo now. This few days cant really hype up. No feel. Just mopping around, somehow. Haiss. Dance class was fun, the only time i really enjoy myself.
I really feel like saying haiss alot sial.

JT: Dont worry, i not emo-ing cause of you. Dont feel depressed. :)

Its those kindof 'xin suan' feeling. Its like a heartbreak kind of feeling. Haiss. I dont want all this to happen. Like just not like me. Haiss.

2010-03-05T18:39:00.003+08:00

Back from camp.
Camp was kinda tiring and sucky on the first day. But in the second day onwards, it was quite fun.

will post more later. Going to pick my sis.

I dont want to come home since nobody wants me home. I hate home. I rather suffer in camp than coming home. All this sucks.

Why didnt i go for dance? I am so dumb. Dance can make me feel happier. :(

2010-02-27T00:04:00.003+08:00

Cant - just get over it already? Is it that hard? I already did my best. I did my part. cant - just do the same too? damnit. I am trying to make things better. - are making it worse. what do - want me to do? Stop making me so f-ed up can? Why? why do - treat me so differently? I am very dissapointed and i am giving up on - trying to make up. - are not even trying anyways. Whatever le. I dont care le. - want play, I play along with -.
I am pissed. Dont take this so seriously. I will recover eventually. Just forget anything happened.

2010-02-26T23:19:00.003+08:00

Well, I think i really did alot of wrongs this year and the end of last year. I feel.. I feel.. empty, i guess. IDK. This strong will that i have helps me not feel anything, numb myself whenever something happens. So its okay for me. Since i cant feel a thing. Emotions are easier to control now. As long as i remain smiling, everything will be fine. Thats what i do best, smile.

HipHop class today was FREAKING FUN!!!!!!!
Damnit nice. Although the crunches sucked. But i survived. LOL.
I will be faithful. Will go for every lesson. Even the one right after camp.
And i am gonna quit job. This sunday?

As for the 30th anniversary thingy, I will have to listen to the song before i choreo. -.-
I got some steps in mind le. xD

I wished for courage and strong will to keep moving forward. I will endure. I will keep the promise i made to myself. I will do my best. No matter what happens.

Maybe i made the wrong decision to join, maybe its a wrong decision to leave, maybe its wrong to love, maybe its wrong to create, maybe its wrong for me to do anything.
ISLY. But am trying my best to forget. But i cant. M is smaller than 3R.

2010-02-21T01:05:00.003+08:00

I am late/early today. :)

I dont know why but i feel a little happier now. Maybe cause i overcomed one problem and the other is halfway through! I can do it. I will do it. :)

Decided to take up HipHop and starting next fri probably. Good luck to me.

And i pon-ed work again today. cause of visiting. And visiting was fun today. Its fun talking to cousins! its been a long time since i talked to them this much. I guess that all that had happened recently had boosted my courage.

Yeah. this post will be short. So bye.

To Yokpin: You get over your obstacle, I will get over mine.

2010-02-19T14:24:00.003+08:00

Heys. I finally privated my blog. Guess what happened today? Well, You-know-who sent me a sms in class and we were sitting right beside each other. she wrote: Why are you treating me so cold? did i do something wrong?
I didnt know if i should reply. Then finally i sent this: whatever la.
Well, after that i went out of class to go 'toilet'. Actually i went to 305 to see if wee pin got back his phone. I accidentally make his phone get confiscated. Then he say he will get it back later. Then ask me go back class. But i didnt even want to go back to class lor. After I told JT that i was going to die cause of her, I went to the toilet to hide. After awhile then go back class. Then when i go back class, she was crying =.= , again. Then i sit down at the end side of my chair. The side away from her and my table was apart from her. Now i kinda told everyone about her shameless story. And during geog, we are suppose to sit together on one big table. But this time round she went to sit at other ppl's table. LOL. So from today onwards, we are no long friends. And i want to change place. I going to tell lin za soon. Hope she will allow the change. I dont mind sitting with any one, except for her and illin.

And I have to work tmr. =.= I dont want go sial. So tired. But must endure!

I know its over. Everything changes this year. Really epic changes. The time has come for me to take my stage. I make my decisions without bothering what other people things. Its the time for me to change. I will bring out my courage again.

And i decided to take the girl's hiphop class.

Bye for now.

2010-02-17T22:08:00.001+08:00

Heys. today i am going to private my blog.
Will post about today tomorrow. bye

2010-02-15T22:56:00.002+08:00

I realised my blog is very boring. Psps for you ppl. LOL. I will add songs soon, and maybe pictures.

I purposely post today is to make yokpin and niven jealous! xD

Yokpin is sooooooooooo gonna be jealous.

GUESS WHAT. Today I went to work and i did grill instead of the lobby. At 1st i thought it was going to crowded cause of cny then they will make me do lobby but no way. I was damn shocked lor cause yokpin and niven tio lobby. I so zai. Plus today was not very crowded lor. At around 4 plus, i was like so slack la. practically do nothing lor. Then after that i go eat 1st. Then after eating i go back do grill again. Then it was abit more busy but still very slack. Then after that manager ask me do one round lot pick up. That was the only bad part la. But still okay. I kinda enjoyed it. LOL. Then after that i go back in and then do drinks. There quite busy la but better than lobby can le. Only around 8 then started to get busy but i got help from counter ppl and another drinks person. Then slack slack le. After that at 9 i ended work and went home! somemore 1st time when i leave the place got ppl from counter say bye to me sial. And i got ang pow- $10 sial. Although i did get another burn and some inguries due to my clumsyness.

Yokpin. I know you are jealous. Admit it. I dont have to do lobby sial. Shiok lor.

I should post about cny too.

Lemme see..

Yesterday, went to collect most of the ang pows. Total currently is $176 i think. I was so tired yesterday i fell asleep in the car almost everytime i was on the car. Slept at around 3 the day before and woke up around 8.

Today, collected one extra ang pow and went to work. And,. I going to attend dance classes soon!!! I managed to make my father pay for me. Omg. I am so damn happy. :]

But am not sure what type of dance to take up leh. There's Hip hop, Ballet, Jazz, Broadway jazz, contemporary. I am thinking of taking up the hip hop for girls only. But i scared i cmi. I am also thinking of sticking to contemporary or ballet instead of learning new stuff. Hmm.. I need suggestions.

Happy CNY and belated Valentine's day everyone!

2010-02-13T23:36:00.003+08:00

Damn busy nowadays. Hardly have time to use com. Now can use cause i am Shou Sui-ing..

tired sial. i wokeup at 6.50 this morning. sian la. Alot of things happen and i dont dare post much. Cause of two lame ppl. Fuck. Nvm. I shall see what happens on wed. then slowly decide on what to do. Epic ignore. Seriously need do some thinking. But i scared if i think too much then.. Okay.. must think positive.

Lemme see.. friday gave out a lot of chocolates, i felt like an idiot. LOL. But i think i forget give to some 306 and 308 ppl. And that tattat and Jt didnt come when i specially prepared chocolates for them sial. Walao. Jt got his after school. Tattat on wed, if i can remember.. Keke. Then other ppl maybe on wed also? if i got xtra. :} If want then come find me.

I want watch The lightning thief sial and Breakout. i know some guys want to watch too.

Go watch sial. I dont care le. this year i will go and watch.

And Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's Day! Have fun everyone!

* Dont buy chocolates for guys. They dont give you back any de. They just pop it into their mouth and then its gone! Hmpf. All so bad.

Its not i dont talk to you la. its you dont talk to me lor. Say what you also trying to become friends. I dont think so lor. you didnt even appreciate my chocolate la.

2010-02-06T06:46:00.004+08:00

Hi. Am really early today. Cause am suppose to go work but i not feeling very well emotionally and still have abit of backache. But i really need to post about yesterday,

So yesterday suck. It really sucks being in between. There are always different opinion, really different. I dont choose sides, i cant. But i will do my best to be by their side even if one day i collase. I made a wrong and stupid decision again. I made too many this few months, from last year october onwards. Cause of all this, I cant control my emotions well anymore. Cause it hurts, it hurts too much. I wish everything was a dream, once i wake up everything will be gone. Althoughh we pact up, i still feel something missing, its probably my laughter, my happiness. I cant seem to laugh well now. My heart feels like it had gone missing. I really miss 2008. Cause everything was pretty much perfect. I dont know what will happen on monday but i hope i can laugh again in class except history.

I dont know how to talk, I dont usually do that. I cant. But i really just want my good friend back. I really wish it was like last time. It was so much fun but now, its really boring and heartbreaking. I wish i had to courage. I wish everyone would forgive me for the wrong decisions i made so far. I to change things, be myself again but i dont know how. All the thingthat happen tramatised me.

Yesterday was the first time W saw me cry, and the second time Y saw me cry. Nobody else did. I never showed my tears. Thats why it hurts even more.
I hope i can talk to you again. You are my good friend right? i wont miss this chance to get back my friend.

2010-02-03T16:44:00.002+08:00

This is different. Right?

Feel like crying out loud. Not hiding my feelings. Just cry it all out. But i know i cant. i never will be able to. Its too hard for me. I have been doing this for so long. I just cant. I wish i can speak my heart out like every other girl. But i cant. Even if i can, there is no one. No one that can help. I tried. And i my really giving up my smiles everytime i am alone.

2010-02-03T16:07:00.003+08:00

Finally can use com. Being busy. Today is fun! Pon-ed 1 period of english. LOL. You should see Lin za's face man. totally gl. Then to make her more pissed off, whenwe were standing outside class, we still happilly laugh & laugh. While in the toilet pon-ing class, I became the Lao Qi (it sounds so wrong). LOL. Then i class Lin za so sick that she showed us a condom advertisement. Fag. And when she go look for Freddy to complain about us then Freddy helpped us!! Love him man.

I wanted to know what they said. But she wouldnt tell. She tried to lie but i know. I wouldnt force her anyway. I know how it feels. I just wish she would tell.

Haiss. Today morning sucked. Oh well. I should just forget.

It was all lies. But i still want to know.

2010-01-27T19:15:00.005+08:00

Bleh. Today sucked. Something happened and i assume that tmr's history will not be the same anymore. I was kinda emotional today. Well, during recess something happen. Then i felt kinda sad. But i just try to dont bother and keep it in my heart again. Then during recess pasakorn pissed me off. Then i keep drinking the green tea to chill myself. But it didnt help. I was pissed and sad when i went up to class. i pack my books for geog class and someone did to. And guess what? Someone ignored me and walked to class without me. Then i was like wtf? what did i do wrong? Fag. Then i emo-ed and put my head down on table. And i kinda teared alittle.. Nvm.
Then at mac lab i see brennan emo then i emo too. I also dont know why. I see ppl sad i will sad too.
Get over today already. Damn. I suck.

I think you all should forgive You-Know-Who. Cause ... did help too.

I hope i dont die in tmr's beep test. I heard it sucked. And i hope tmr will be better.

2010-01-22T18:51:00.006+08:00

Hello. Haha. Idk why, but i kinda feel happier today than every other day. Maybe cause i got to have some chat session with yokpin today and hanged out with brennan and weisheng for awhile. And while talking, memories came back. Cause we were mainly talking about 207 '09. Miss that class. Miss the people too. And I realised a lot of people changed since last year.

Here is some of the (funny) flashbacks.

Sec 1:
-1st two days everyone was quiet like there is no one in class. And i was sitting beside yokpin on the 1st day. I was wondering, who the hell is this SHORT girl??
-There was once when me and yokpin poured marmee powder on weisheng. And he put a tissue inside his shirt and went to the back noticeboard and rubbed his back, to clean off the marmee powder. LOL!
-I stepped on whoever's shoes when they called me white specs.
-Started desiao-ing people.
-Junwei became the ultimate gay.
-etc,etc.

Sec 2:
-There was this fareez kissed jian zhong part. Gays!
-The rat and mice desiao thing.
-The boys started dancing all sorts of dance.
-Kangaroo!
-Streaming came and everyone started to study and get close to each other. Cause we are going to part.

Sec 3:
-I miss Mr koh so much.
- my form teacher sucks.
- Boring classes.
-Lesser fun and laughter.
-I hate my job all of a sudden.
-It just sucks without mr kohkoh and 207'ers.
-Only one lesson which is history, rocks.
-Its harder to tell ppl things.
-Many ppl changed.

I hope sec 3 can be better as time passes.

2010-01-20T16:16:00.003+08:00

I realised i have not been blogging recently. Sorry 'bout that. Me lazy. LOL

I love monday and thursday. Its not really cause of dance. Its cause of the lessons, history in particular. Its the laughing session of the day. And its just copying answers. Dont have to pay attention at all. Go there only eat sweet, joke around, laugh like mad & copy answers. Thats basically what we do for the whole lesson. But somehow i manage to understand every shit the teacher is talking about. Haha. I miss 207. Especially those who use to make me laugh. Maybe thats why i like history so much. I guess i will never pon history. I cherish it too much. The only fun time of my life nowadays.

Yeah. Life is freaking boring now and i feel freaking emo too. And i realised i hurt too many ppl. Damn. I suck right..

I try to change but it gets worse.

Being in the outer character is better. At least i could be talking among the group.

2010-01-09T13:57:00.002+08:00

Things are becoming from bad to worst.

Well, whatever happened on the night right before my birthday is happening again. Only one person know that something happened and I indirectly promised that person that it would never happen again. I think of the promise whenever that incident tries to happen again. But, I dont think its of much use now. I tried to stop but i cant..
Why am i always the exceptional one?

Today i burnt my finger two times, cut my arm, tried to walk properly with a sprained ankle, had to wake up early and everyone left me behind for lunch. Great. Its adding to the incident. This sucks.

Last year's suckyness added to this year's. I really hope i can keep up with the promise i made.

Appearantly, i shouldnt post this. Its just to writeit all out and make it feel better. Its the only thing i can do since i have no one suitable to talk to.

2010-01-08T14:59:00.002+08:00

Well, today was better. Although it was freaking embaressing to have my leg wrapped.
I want my ankle to be recovered by sunday. Monday have M&D practice! i want go!! But i heard the new instuctor is the last time before i came that instuctor. And he is VERY strict. OMG. I might be making a very big mistake look forward to monday. But i still want to go.

Anyways, I think i became a very good girl. At least i am highlighting notes which i never did last time. Now, i bother alot about my studies. But my chinese is becoming very bad! I cant even read a simple passage well. I was like so bloody embaressed la. And those two behind me keep making lame-ass comments. I want Mr Koh! I miss him!! Why cant we have him as chinese teacher? Now i hate chinese. I used to like it with kohkoh around. T.T i am going to fail badly!!
Damnit and emaths sucked too! Mrs Chu keeps going on. So fast. And there is hell lot of homework. I AM going to die like this.

And i keep getting the idea that i am being ignored! Damnit. This year is not starting well..
But not as bad as last year. There is no fun anymore. Most of the jokers went to 305. The period i most look forward to history! Very fun! Haha.

Missed 207. Hope everyone can go out together one day.

Gived up. So can you stop ignoring me now?

2009-12-18T11:24:00.002+08:00

Dead blog. Have not been posting recently. Too busy. Too many things happen.

Started work 1 month ago or so. Maid went back to indonesia, my mum is a full-timer so i had to do most of the housework and my siblings are of no help.

Yeah so i probably wont be posting much anyways.

Well, i sprained my ankle again. During PE. My leg numb then i try to walk because nobody helped to pull me up. So, i sprained my ankle in the attempt of trying to walk. LOL. Then I still have climb up the stairs to level 4. Imagine it. Recess time i have to climb down to level 1 and climb up again after recess ended. And i didnt bring my history books. "Borrowed" the text from JT. LOL. Then he give me that 'you-good-lor' face. After school i had to walk all the way home alone & eat instant noodles. Practically, my whole day sucked. I realised that loyalty aint that important anymore.

Damnit. I feel like chopping off my feet. Its mercy 'killing'. LOL.

Looking for someone that can be with me.. Waiting for someone too..

2009-12-06T17:15:00.004+08:00

What if its true? What if its not? What am i suppose to do? What should I do? Damnit. Damnit.

Anyways, I will just post where i go in malaysia and some important stuff. I too lazy to write somemore. Sorry for the very late post. ;}

1st day - Bukit tinggi
Hotel: Colmar tropical - rating: 3/5
{Lots of flies there. LOL.}

2nd & 3rd day - Penang
Hotel: Sri malaysia - rating: 1/5
{It sucks.}

4th day - Ipoh
Hotel: Sri malaysia - rating: 3/5
{Not bad but the variety of food there is very less.}

5th & 6th day - Kuala lumpur
Hotel: AnCasa hotel - rating: 4/5
{Its nice.}

Bought lots of stuff and had alot of fun. ;}

Started work after i come back. And alot of other stuff happened.

2009-11-25T14:06:00.001+08:00

Hello! I am currently posting from malaysia, Ipoh. Hahas. Damn glad this hotel has wifi. I will post about the trip when i return to Singapore. Byebye. xD

Missed ya so much.

2009-11-18T19:33:00.006+08:00

Okay, as you people know, Sunday was my birthday. Yeah, so i will write another sum up. :]

Ate breakfast at home. Went to Liang Court to eat lunch, Subway. :)
After lunch, wemt to Audio House to look at vacumn cleaner or something.
After that went back home cause my father wants to do work. Btw, its my father's birthday too. And i have got no idea why he wants to do those rough work on his own birthday.

So after he finished work, rested awhile and then at 5+pm we headed for ION Orchard.
Booked for Swensens there. Before i went in to the resturant, I went to the toilet 1st. And guess what. I left my phone in the cubbie and walked out not knowing. I sat down at the resturant for awhile till i realised my phone was not with me. Then i quickly ran to the toilet and search for it. It was not there. Then i ran back to the resturant and my mother called my phone. A man picked it up. He is kind enough to return it to me. Then, suddenly Brennan's message came in. He was trying to make me worry that my birthday is almost over. =.= I told him that i just got my phone back from lossing it. He claims he is my luckystar. =.= More like unlucky to me. :}
So i went back to eat my steak.
After eating, went outside to see the christmas trees and decorations. After that, went back home and took out the birthday cake that me and my bro baked for my father. Well, as usual the cake sucked in the inside but the outside is great.
Went to sleep after everything.

Monday.
Had m&d. The instuctor didnt come so mr Ali took over. Taught us broadway Jazz. It was damn fun.

Tuesday.
Coe performance. I went there to watch. It was great.
Sband: Cant find shirley in it.
Drama: The makeup was amazing. Cannot reconize people de. Reconize Brennan only by his hair. LOL. Weepin by his actions.
M&D: Was great. The stage was not big enough for them, thats why it looked messy. Cant spot Veron.
Mband. Cant spot people also. It was amazing as usual.

Wednesday.
M&D. Chanbara. Werid right? It was fun. Parry was there. For those who dont remeber him, its the instuctor that taught us chanbara last year, for my group.

Thursday.
M&D again. Lyrical jazz. Emo kinda dance. The warm ups are damn tiring. The dance was quite fun.

Today.
Pon-ed dance. I am "sick". Cause too tired already whole week had to go school. Went for a job interview just now. Finally 14. Can work so I work. Earn more money can spend more money.
I am going to malaysia from 22 to 28nov. Dont call or sms me, if not you will be waiting to get a death bill. I wont reply anyways.

Still thinking of you, wishing you are mine. But i guess its impossible. I will never get to know what you feel for me, you will never tell. Do i have to make the 1st move? I dont want to. You have your principles, I have mine too. I will carry on living in misery till something actually happens.

2009-11-13T10:47:00.002+08:00

I will sum up the damn chalet thing. If want full, go Yokpin or Jade's blog.

1st day. Spending spree. At least $80 on 1st day alone. Hell.
The amazing race is just okok. Cause only got one chubby bunny. The other stations didnt do anything. Then at chalet when for cycle, alot of things happen. After cycle, pizzas came. Ate pizzas then there is this night walk thing. Things also happen there, dont wish to elaborate. Came back, everything cancelled. Then mum called, reminded me of something. I went to the pool and another thing happen. Went back to chalet after awhile. Watch some tv and prepared the floor for some of us to sleep. Soon, i fell asleep. The rest of the night I was sleeping. So i dont know what happened. I keep getting stepped on because I am sleeping nearest to the door, on the floor.

2nd day.
In the morning I keep trying to go back to sleep. But the damn door keep opening. And the sunlight was very glaring. When it was not so glaring, i went back to sleep. But still get stepped on. Damnit. Woke up not long later, went to wash up and change. Then went to return bikes after that. Some people borrowed bikes. I stole mingtat's bike. HAHA. Went for a ride, returned it after half an hour. Went to mac to eat breakfast. I had a medium size coke for breakfast. Cause i am too broke after the 1st day. After breakfast, decided to go kbox. spend $15. Go there hear Pasakorn sing only and his singing seriously sucks. (No offence)
Then after 3 hours, everyone went home.
I went home and slept through the whole day.

Overall i spent at least a $100. Holy poops. Freak asses. Lucky my mum never ask me for the money. Faggoty hell. Well, maybe its worth it. Last year for 8 person, I spent $80 on food. This year for 20 people I only spent $60 on food. Every year like this I am going broke.

One more day but nobody seem to care.

Decided that there will be no more teardrops from me.

2009-11-08T21:32:00.002+08:00

All cheered up now. And kinda excited for tmr. :}
I guess it going to be fun.

Tmr, I cant wait! I will enjoy the beach tmr. At night, alone. It wll be fun!
Hope everyone will enjoy it and be happy!

Hahas. Gonna sleep now. Bye.

I think i can forget you now. I need to. Too many ppl know. I need to rid you of my mind. Its sooner or later.

2009-11-06T19:28:00.003+08:00

When your birthday is coming, you are suppose to feel happy right? Especially when you are getting great gifts like a handphone or so.

I dont feel happy at all, not even a having abit of excitment. Whats wrong with me anyway. Yeah, i will still smile and laugh and all cause thats what i do best. Maybe i think too much too. Better stop thinking its better for health.

Today did Hip-Hop for dance. Fun and tiring. Some steps i am still not sure how to do. Like ripple. Its hard. The rest its quite okay i guess. Got the final results for streaming. E9, 307.

Monday is chalet and amazing race. There goes all my money. At least $60 byebye. Cause of the damn food. Pizzas. 6 pizzas. Am i good or what.

Nothing much to say le. Bye.

Still thinking of you.

2009-11-02T17:05:00.003+08:00

Edited my playlist. I uploaded the 1st three songs is got reason de.
1st song: I'm yours - My favourite love song {Currently i guess}
2nd song: You belong with me - Winnie and Pasakorn's favourite love song
3rd song : Cry on my shoulder - Yokpin and Zhenning's favourite love song

During today's dance lesson i was suffering a epic stomach ache. Controlled the pain until end of lesson. At the canteen rest, useless though. The pain was infuriating. Cant walk, cant stand up, face turned pale, sweating cold sweat, even my vision becomes weird . When i finally decided to walk, walk awhile only had to stop. Then finally decided to call my dad to come pick me up. Cause i cant walk at all. Might faint. Well, i almost fainted when walking to the canteen but managed to get a grip. Then my bro came to help. [gotta thank him] While waiting for my dad, i cant stand it anymore, went to the sickbay to rest. Fell asleep for awhile, then when i woke up i felt much better. Decided to go home. Then just in time my dad came. So, i went back ho

The difference between significant and in significant if just a 'in'. But with this two letters, it changes the whole meaning of the word and could hurt someone's feelings but just adding two letters. Use your words meaningfully and use it when you mean it only.

Reminder for those who are going for chalet: Bring some money and some snacks. If you want to contribute to the food that I will buy, just bring it. Best is bring cooked ones.
For those who are staying over, Bring at least 3sets of clothes, toothbrush and toothpaste, towel and whatever other personal things. The chalet is next week. Those who said they are coming must come or i will personally go to your house to 'escort' you. Meet at parsir ris mrt at 5pm, find the others and wait for me. Be there or be dead. {;
Any questions can call or sms me.

Heartbreaking. You said you were making fun of me only, insignificant huh? I am not even a friend? What about the 'I feel comfortable around, can speak me heart out'? Another joke huh?

2009-10-30T18:52:00.002+08:00

Last day of school today. Dont know why but somehow i feel sad.

I miss people. Will never forget 207 and the great times we all had as a class. I dont want to have this 2 months holiday. I want to spent more time in 207.

People went round taking photos. I didnt bother. I didnt even bother doing a card. Maybe thats why i feel sad or something like that. Tried to go online msn to find someone to cheer me up, but failed. Something is wrong with the msn. Dont know what to write le. Going to end here and go emo facing the computer. Bye.

Maybe only you can cheer me up..

When i look at you i can smile. But when we look at each other, i would always make fun of you. I cant seem to carry on looking into your eyes. I dont know why but i think i am feeling sad because i miss you. Even though i get to see you next year. I felt heartbroken when i know you like someone else. It is not suppose to happen this way..

2009-10-27T10:50:00.003+08:00

Today is sec 2 streaming. No school.

Yesterday went to Vivocity to watch movie, Imagine that. Abit boring. Not very worth to watch.

After school, before the movie, went to Winnie's 1st, to change. I cant go back home. Because i am suppose to have cca that day. :}
After that we took bus to Serangoon mrt then take mrt to Harbourfront. Went we reached, we check the timing for the movie 1st then went to a bookstore. WTF. Tempted is out & Blood promise is $29! Then after that we went to eat Carl's Jr. The burger is darn big & its freaking ex. After eating, went to Marks and Spencer, to buy chocolates. When finish buying, we still had like 40min. So, we browse around in some shops. Soon, we headed for the cinema. After watching to movie, its was about 6.30pm so i had to rush home. I changed into school uniform and I went back home myself while Winnie and Pasakorn ate dinner together.
Went reach to mrt station, I went into a mrt, which i wasnt suppose to. I was the only one in the freaking mrt. Then the mrt drove the mrt backwards then back to the station again. After that I managed to reach home safetly.

I woke up at 9.15am this morning. And suprised to see my brother not using the comp and not even home. So i had a chance to post and use the comp. :]
And, just a few seconds ago, Yusoff called me. Asked me if i dont mind taking pure geog, E9. If not i have to take D&T or something. So i agreed. That means i didnt manage to get triple science. :[
But most likely i get to be in the same class as Winnie. At least there is a good side.

Everyone please go for class chalet and amazing race, PLEASE. The amazing race needs people. Its the last year for the 7'ers. Cant you peeps just cooperate for once? Is your computer so important? Much more important than your friends? Just go. For this one time, the last time.

It is love or like or hao gan or what. I think, I dream, I dont know what to do. How? Yearning for his messages and his words. Hoping he'd talk to me more.

2009-10-24T11:06:00.003+08:00

Thursday damn tiring. Morning got fencing. Afternoon got M&D. Fencing have to stand under the sun. M&D no sun but got lots of stretching. Now and yesterday suffer muscle ache. Cannot even walk properly. Dang. Lucky next whole week no more M&D. Orelse i am sure to die. LOL.

Anyway, who wants to go Marina barage on Monday after school? School ends at 11.45 that day. Meet at 1pm at Ang Mo kio mrt. Change in to home clothes before coming. Anyone can come. Go there for fun de.

Yesterday spent the whole day slacking at home. At around 1+pm, I asked Rat Rat if he is going to Marina barage. He said he will go if Weepin goes. And Weepin said the same thing. Then i remembered today's coe lunch is 2 hours so obviously Rat Rat when to meet Weepin or smth. Then i told Rat Rat and Weepin that i know they are right beside each other. LOL. They got owned! Cant fool me de. :p

I need to stop thinking. I dont know what is making me angry nowadays. It is getting harder to control. I need to calm down. Too much pain to handle. Never felt this way before. Maybe i am just overreacting. There is nobody i cant trust now. I am the one who will "catch" everyone's pain and anger, their darkness wthin them and put them into my own darkness and make my darkness even darker.

2009-10-21T15:27:00.003+08:00

Boring school life, now that exams are over. Every few hours hav to squeeze in the hall. The assembly is not even interesting. Still have to sit there untill leg numb. I miss the art assemblys.

Tmr will be fun though. Fencing! And there is M&D after that.
Last year Japanese fencing. This year English fencing. LOL. Lucky I know how to fence alittle.
Tiring day tmr. I am afraid I am not as flexible as before. Tourturing practice tmr. Need to buck up. Will post about tmr lastest on Wenesday. That is if i can remember what happened.

As for today, I spent the whole day observing people. Its fun. But people might misunderstand and think you are staring at them, which is quite rude. Although my CoE performance was cancelled, I am going to watch the others perform. I will make sure i spot some certain people. ;}
There is a new principal in school now. Wonder if she is bettter.
My overall results were ok. Fail art though. Never thought i would fail.
The chalet was to celebrate my birthday. I didnt want to tell because people will buy me presents which I think its kinda not fair because I never bought them any. I am hope everyone would go, just take it as a normal class chalet. It would be the best present for me to see everyone happy and together. Just one just time being together and all, forget about the thing going on now. Haiss. I hope everyone will go. Even the guys. The 1st night dinner is fully paid. At least come..

Mixed feelings in my heart again. Dont want to make the wrong move again. I dont really know if i actually feel that way for him. Yeah, I think of him and feel happy when he talks to me. We so different but at the same time very alike. But it feels wrong for us to be together, its like.. different..

2009-10-20T19:22:00.005+08:00

Well, I got back my results today. Its not bad i should say. Zero fails for once.

English: B3 [Half mark to A2. Highest in class for paper 2]
Chinese: C6 [Just passed.]
Mathematics: C5 [Its amazingly higher than chinese & managed to pass.]
Science: B3 [I am sure I will get A for overall because of MYE.]
Lit:erature C5 [Passed amazingly]
Geography: A1 [Hell Yeah!]
Home econs: A1/A2 [Results not given yet. But I am sure I will get an A]
Overall:
A: 3 or 4.
B: 1 or 2.
C: 3 or 4.

I like my results damnit alot sial. Best results yet. I hope i can get pure Bio.

Back to the happenings in school..
Okay, today appearently some cried some laughed over their results. The guys were as usual. Playing and having fun, like as if nothing matters. Had some probs in school today. Felt so terrible. Found out another lie, people had another misunderstanding. Life sucks when people accuse each other and you are not part of it and get hurt because of it. Today was probably the worst day yet. If today was not the day i got back the results and all of them passed, I might not even smiled at all. And when the day comes that i never smile for one day, it would be the end of me. Life gets more and more devastated. I have to choose one side eh? Its heartbreaking to know..

Another big lie. It happened to me once or twice before. This kind of lie can destory relationships. Be it love or friends. Its soon over huh? I wished it never happened at all..
I dont want to choose a side. I dont want to lose anymore. Too much to take. Lies, lies. I neve was I ever affected by it.

2009-10-15T16:26:00.003+08:00

WOW. Exams are over! I can finally post!

Exams were okay. I just hope i dont fail more than two. I want to get in triple science class! I want to study Biology so i have no choice. T.T

There will be a class chalet on 12th to 14th Nov. Can stayover by maximum 1o people. Or else you have to bring your own sleeping bag. Dinner for 1st night will be fully paid. But dont you dare come just for the food. Food is also quite limited. Want more food? You can contribute. We are doing barbeque like last year. Last year was great fun right? This year will be better. If you want stayover, tell me early. If not, when the number of people stayover is full, you have to bring sleeping bag or cannot stayover. Left 6 spaces for stayover only! Please tell me asap if you are stayover or even coming so we can prepare more food if it is within our bugdet.

Tomorrow is marking day! Then it would be sat and sun. Then deepavali. So altogether got 4 days free. After exams damn bored sial. Only maths will continue with lessons. Haiss.

This small words are not for you to see lah! PLEASE FUCK OFF!

2009-10-02T16:26:00.003+08:00

I am darn lazy to blog.

Anyways, today is Rat's birthday. As a very good cousin, i wished him happy birthday in the morning while he is asleep. So, technically i woke him up. I told him i did it on purpose. LOL. He said he will get revenge on my birthday next year. He can slowly wait. My next year birthday still got 13 months. And he does not even know when is my birthday. Well, i also cursed him to end up in the last class. I am a good cousin. :]
Once again, Happy Birthday Ratty.

Today was boring. The day flew by really fast. I regretted deciding on not pouring water or spraying perfume on Ratty today. Because his birthday today i thought it was a good idea to let him have a peaceful day. Eh Ratty, you must thank me.

Exams are coming. I must start revising. I am afraid this time round i might fail more subjects. I must pass all my subjects but lit is an exception. i want to do triple science so that next time i can be a Psychologist or those Research for cure for uncurable disease like Diabietes and Cancer.
Both also what i like to do and can earn alot enough money. I dont work for money. I work for helping people. :]

Tag my blog peeps. Bye :}

Why am i getting angry so easily this days? Is it because of that or because i have so mixed feelings in my heart? It was never like this. Too many things happened, too fast. I never felt so much hate, anger and hurt before. I want to remain as the one who can make anyone happy at anytime. I dont want to lose my smile, my laughter. I dont want to drop a tear ever again. Losing control of myself, fading into the shadows. Listeners cant have their own listeners? Because we keep our promises as well as we can. We dont tell secrets that were told to us. We dont tell others about our own troubles. Is that why we suffer more? I love being a listener. I know alot of things and people trust me. I need to relax and clam my heart and mind. So many things happened i can believe it either. Two years and people change so much. Times passes, people change and everyone drifts away. I want to find my perfect cheerfulness again.

2009-09-26T11:24:00.003+08:00

Anyone wants DVDs, Keyboards, Mouse, Laser printer & other IT stuff? I am selling it cheap! Most are new and very good quality. The laser printer is one and only, selling at a very low price. Friends get more discount. ;]
Please tell me if you want. Will post the exact prices next time. :}
Plus, does anybody knows anyone that wants to rent a shop? Please tell me. More info in next post too.

After the holidays.

2009-09-23T16:21:00.004+08:00

The first day of school I had M&D practice. It was the one and only ever practice that i dont know the steps at all. I was not around during the holiday practices. I was not told about a new exercise when I asked. It was so dam ps not knowing the steps and standing infront. At least i know the steps of the indian dance.
Exams are coming. I gotta study harder. I just hope i can pull through the exams.
Manage to complete the dance without any flaws or at least not that obvious.

Retribution or Revenge? Broke his heart i suppose. Shouldnt had said all those.

Long post. Holiday's happenings.

2009-09-16T16:20:00.012+08:00

Okay, the holidays i went for chalet. From tues to fri.

Day 1. My brother's friends had a party there. Two stayed over. I went to Ikea that day. There were RAT soft toys! OMG. Wanted to buy but parents dont allow. I took a picture of the new one though.

Day 2. Woke up early to go for Winnie's Birthday celebration. took the 1st feedle bus to Paris mrt. I took bus 5 to Far east plaza. and half way there i almost lost my way. Yok pin call to ask where am i. I was not sure. She keep on scaring me. Say i pass the stop already. When i finally reached, my battery low because of the calling. We went to zoo. It was very sunny and scorching hot! I took photo graphs of kangaroos. We went around looking at other exhibits. We went to the Flying creatures there. There were some butterflies there. Then, one butterfly landed on Winnie.. Yok pin jumped and pull my hand. That made the butterfly start flying around. Then Pasakorn and Yok pin started ducking and squeaking. Me and Winnie stand there laughing like mad. When that butterfly flew away, Pasakorn calmed down. But Yp keep grabbing my arm. Then, we go see bats. We were happily looking at the bats, Then, suddenly one bat open of his wings and licked his ____! OMG! I was like ' What the- then speechless for 5 seconds and then started laughing'. Then we went on walking. Now, another butterfly came. The two keep ducking again and running around. We quickly move to the exit to prevent Yok BIN from pull my hand off. After that we just visit other exhibits and left the zoo. Pek left 1st. Me, Winnie & Pasakorn went to catch a movie. G-Force! It is all about the little animals saving the day. It is damn cute sial. Quek Rat Rat must watch! Got MICE inside! So after the movie, we all went home.

Day 3. Went to Xcape theme park. Played most of the games. During lunch, went to eat. On the way back to the theme park, got distrated and went shopping as usual. Bought some clothes and went back to the theme park to play awhile more. In total, spent over a hundered for that day.

Day 4. Pack up all my things. After packing up, i took bus all the way back home. Changed to white tee and was about to leave. Then, it started to rain! Pasakorn asked me to bring an umbrella because his needs to pick Winnie up. Brought the umbrella to him and waited for him to bring Winnie to wherever i was. Walked to hub. Ate pepperlunch, Winnie treated. Went to Bishan for dance practice. Finished most of it and went home.

Myself.

2009-09-04T18:22:00.003+08:00

It is so damnit bored so i will post about myself.

Well, i can hear what people are whispering and stuff from a distance away. But if background noisy i have to concentrate then can hear. My ears are very sensitive.
I can somehow know what people are about to say. Or who like who.
My curses would majority come true.
When i have long nails, dont anger me.
I have four very sharp teeth. Two top, two bottom. If i get extremely angry i will use my teeth. But that seldom happens. Only sometimes at home.

It is hard to make me angry outside home. If i ever shown my temper infront of anyone outside home, i would usually feel really remoseful and become slightly emo. Hahas.
I can make people laugh anytime, anywhere.
Cannot get angry for long. Less than half an hour, all hate will vanish. But if people keep reminding me of the incident or something, it will last.
Dont mind me if i flame people in sch. Its for FUN!

Hahas. Overall, i am just a normal person. Everything i do, there is a reason. Thats my principle. If i were asked to hit someone, i would need a reason. The person i hit/hate/scold must have done something to make me pissed off. :}

Thats all peeps. Byes.

2009-09-04T16:52:00.005+08:00

We won SILVER for the Elementz competition!

Done IT video thingy. Done Elementz thingy. Dance is almost done. Class tee done. So much stress is gone.

Dance meeting up during hoildays. On thursday. Start at 1pm. Venue: Not comfirmed. I wont mind the new dance formation as long as 1) Nobody desiao. 2) No touching. LOL. 3) Everyone cooperates. :]

LOL. Wait and see our dance. I would probably die because no one would care about (1). But i would get back at them too anyway. MuaHahaha.

Today whole day only do filling. So boring. Had the last lesson of rugby. Next term learning floorball.

Holidays are here. totally packed. Monday: Finish all holiday homework. Tuesday: chalet Wednesday: Winnie's outing + chalet. Thursday: M&D + chalet. Friday: M&D + chalet + dance.
Dance must rush! OMG.

Need to save loads of $. Winnie's outing: at least $35. Contacts: $25. Total: $60. I currently only have $30. Another 30 more to go. Happy saving. :]

Such a BITCH. Never help can claim credit?? Impossible! Pissed off. So faugly. Go and die la. Boot-licker! Never contribute at all and claims credit! Not own credit want to show off. Some just simply dont deserve it.

A Faggotty day.

2009-09-02T17:35:00.004+08:00

Darn it man. So damn it faggotty! WTH!

Today got darn it Elements competition. Before presentation, i was so fluent, so confident. When i present, i was shaking and stammering like mad. Even Yp could see me shaking from two tables away! Hell! Then jugdes were like controling, trying not to laugh lor! WTH! So embaressed! Then that Yp also keep on controling. After the judges gone, i begged the rest to kill me. But they refused. It was so damn bloody embaressing lor! Go to Hell man! Haiss.

Then go back school, me, Yp and Winnie when to 107 classroom. Helped Chong Wah mark VE file. So imbal. He say got write thing then just tick cause he cannot read it. Total fail cher. We follow what he do lor. Anyhow bomb ticks. Then got one very beautiful file. The work all write "See page ..." LOL. Might as well dont do. I gave the owner of the file very nice ticks. Big and long. Got put VG also. Zai. Should learnt more from them. Chong Wah bought us drinks. Lousy ones. It was so fun. Keep disturbing him. LOL.

While walking home with Kornister and winnie, Kornister told me a very "GOOD" news. I have to dance solo with ... Am gonna die man. People sure desiao de! DiE. Tmr witness the ultimate war! Gonna "kill" Kornister before i leave school. :}

Pon-ed the whole day of class. Missed practical exam although i brought my ingredients. CHEESE!! Brennen you want some? Oops. I just remembered you only eat garbage. Dont be jealous of my CHEESE.
Failed sci? not sure. Failed geog? also not sure. Missed a whole lot sial. Tomorrow's maths also will miss. If the competition dont get at least silver i will never go to any damn academic competition anymore. Cow poppy sial.

Some people are just plain boot-lickers. When teacher not around, the dont do anything, just slack, let other people do. When teacher around act like big boss and suddenly do all the work, take all the credit. Damnit pissed off. It is just luck that you have.

Idiots.

2009-08-26T15:38:00.002+08:00

Truck loads of days never post le.

Yesterday i was damit pissed off. By somebody's stupid message that yok pin showed me at her house. During the night i told yok pin to help me send a message to that person, to scold and vent my past anger.
I go a once in a blue moon peaceful sleep in Yok Pin's house. She on-ed the aircon and i fell asleep. That was damit cool.

Today was fun! Especially during geog test. I keep calling Rat a Rat. Then he keep calling me Mice. I dont mind though. Since Mice are cuter than Rats. I told Winnie to bring her Rat today. So we could show Rat. He was so disturded today! Yay! Then during Home Econs i spamed Rat. Then told Yok Pin to spam him also. Spam until his phone got 100+ unread messages. LOL! Jy Rat!

It hard to make me really angry. I can seem to get the angry side of me to be shown in front of people. I want to be myself. the real self. But it seems that it just wont happen.

Ratty!

2009-08-21T17:29:00.003+08:00

BRENNEN IS A RAT! BRENNEN IS A RAT!
BRENNEN IS A RAT! BRENNEN IS A RAT!
BRENNEN IS A RAT! BRENNEN IS A RAT!
BRENNEN IS A RAT! BRENNEN IS A RAT!
BRENNEN IS A RAT! BRENNEN IS A RAT!
BRENNEN IS A RAT! BRENNEN IS A RAT!
BRENNEN IS A RAT! BRENNEN IS A RAT!
BRENNEN IS A RAT! BRENNEN IS A RAT!

Boring..

2009-08-21T15:48:00.004+08:00

I am back from school. Today is early dissmissal. Earlier than normal days. Today was fun. Laughing all day long. Got maths test and english test. The maths test i am intending to get full marks. :] It was damit easy sial. Hooray! Drinking Jolly Shandy right now. It contains beer! NICE!

Today's first period is PE. Played rugby again. Our rugby Became so dirty lo. GROSS. I had to hold it! Then we learnt a new skill of passing the ball. The chicken lay egg style. then when teacher said chicken lay egg, everyone looked at Ji Feng. LOL. That was damit hilarious. Next period was chinese. We had to do workbook. We ate and drank during class. Next lesson was IT. We decided on using pics instead of filming our own faces. Then the next lesson is maths. First time got relieve teacher sial. Had our test on data anlaysis. Last lesson is english. Had a essay writing test. Hard. Then its time too go home. The boys and some girls are going to watch movie today. LOL. I cant go.

Fun, Joy, Laughter. Everything i always have, has been with me, to comfort people and make people smile. I know i am not perfect. But, i will always be there for everyone, through thick and thin.

Sad day

2009-08-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

I am posting at night, when i am very tired. Thats so retarded.

Haiss. Lots of stuff happeneed today. Sadness fills me. Hoping People wont feel so sad either. Seen blood and tears.
I will never forget. I will be there for them. Their listener, their helper. I hope they can appreciate each other. If they were me, they will understand

I got to go. Mother nagging. Byes.

Life is not something to not want when you are feeling down. Think, and you will find truth. Believe in yourself and fate.

2009-08-19T18:49:00.000+08:00

Didnt manage to touch the comp for 3 days! Finally i am back. I have started Plurking. Because YokPin keep asking me to join.

Furthermore, that tuition teacher of mine forgot about the homework i was supposed to pass up! [YAY!] I was damit happy that day lor. First time smile while walking alone. Then i called YP. Then while calling, i accidentally cut my leg on the pavement. Lots of blood. Very gross, can see the meat and stuff. LOL.

Today is just plain boring. During dance, i hurt my leg. How? IDK. I kept wincing through the practises. but now its better. :] Science is a free period again. Where yusoff die to sial. i need get the money from her then return pasakorn. Haiss. She purposely hide from us want lor. Dont want to pay up. Damit faggoty sial. Science was relieved by Mrs Chu. When everyone saw her in class during maths lesson, everyone's first reaction was "Huh? Now maths meh?" LOL. During science, we did a survey and a quiz. The survey was amusing. I put alot of disagree. Cause its maths survey. HomeEcons was boring. that idiot Soo kia keep babling about stuff. Then somemore blame us for not finishing the coursework when it is his fault for always being absent. I got to eat the food the other group cooked. Yum yum. I am cooking Winnie's Cupcakes for my practical! Then i eat them all up before the other group people come find me. Geography is as usual. But we have a test next week, which i dont know when because i didnt listem in class as usual. :]

Time to go. i Didnt know my post was going to be this long. So bye!

Its fun sitting behind where all the jokers are. Laughing all day long with the company of friends.
Following my instincts make me feel safe. Its better that way. Even if it lands me into trouble, i dont mind. Because it is part of life. Getting in trouble can be fun at times. I enjoy it. :]

Dance changes.

2009-08-15T11:36:00.000+08:00

Today is boring, as usual. Every satuday got tuition and i have yet to do my homework. I am going to be dead! The homework was supposed to be handed up last week.

I thought of some dance steps, change the timing for the dance.
Girls part: At the start of the music, the girls on the ground on standby. Theme: Emo.
[7 eights of dance steps.]
1st unison: The guys will come in. Cue: Now that i know what i'm without. Theme: Puppet
[3 eights of dance steps.]
Guys part: Girls leave stage slowly. Cue: Wake me up. Theme: Guys decide.
[4 eights of dance steps.]
2nd unison: Girls enter. Cue: Frozen inside without your touch. Theme: Not comfirmed.
[8 eights of dance steps.]

Dancing make me feel happy not matter how tired i am.
I want to attend dance lessons outside..

A boring and heartbreaking day.

2009-08-14T10:43:00.000+08:00

Apparently, i am posting in school. Using school comp 'illegally'. Because i have got nothing better to do as the teacher is slacking. Just a few seconds ago, the teacher all my group up. My group name is 'Heroines of the Earth' it is dammit retarded. LOL. Then, while i was talking crap with the teacher, that Pasakorn wrote so shit on this post. And of cos i deleted it. Today is a boring day though.

There is a big price to pay. I really really hate you all. Why must everybody lie to me. If you all told the truth, i wouldn't be so shattered and hurt now. I almost cried on the bus..

Back to blogging.

2009-08-12T17:49:00.000+08:00

Well well, i have started blogging again. Probably because i have nothing better to do! So i am just going to write crap. Blah Blah Blah.

Well, today i got treat-ed by brenny and gang. Was suffering from gastric in school. So, i called brenny up after school to treat Me, Winnie and Sakorn [My itailan name for Pasakorn. It means side. LOL.]

But, Mr Brenny Quek Yu Yuan[LOL. Duck-fishball.] doesnt want to treat Sakorn, cause he find it feels wrong. We walked to Uncle shop to find Brenny and gang. On the way, that Sakorn told me to run. I ran. Then, halfway to uncle shop, my bag broke! WTF!! So, tmr i will have to use his bag. T.T Say bye to my bag. It was only with me for 1month and two weeks! So, i got no choice but to carry the bag in my hands and walked to uncle shop.

And as usual, Brenny is playing cards there. We waited and waited for him to end his game. then, when he FINALLY finished, we went to KFC to eat. Sakorn treated Winnie instead. Then i eat Shrooms burger. Appearently, i was feeling very kind that day and ordered shrooms only. Orelse i would have ordered something more expensive and create a hole in whoever's pocket. LOL.

Then, the Brenny was saying about something about me. I can hear, People like yok pin should know my hearing is extremly good. I gave him a look, he made a sinister look, the gu-yi-desiao look. LOL. Damnit funny. I kept laughing. Then, i got choke a little. I was drinking my pepsi. WTF! The fun never lasted long. I needed to go back home. I left without saying Thanks to whoever who treated me. Well, here it is! Thanks. LOL.

Missed those times. Way back when we were all together, going out in big groups as bffs. I really missed you all.